My voice recedes into the distance as you pass by. Thoughtless. Not seeing or hearing the things I am too afraid to speak. Against my will, I've fallen. You seem content to let these moments pass until they fade away and become as pale as your eyes. To see hurt and yearning in your eyes. To think that I could bring smile to your face. That I could brighten your day makes it that much harder to see you in so much pain. If I wasn't so afraid I would tell you all the things I really feel. Every-time I'm near you I am at peace. You feel like love, hope, strength and home. In your eyes for every brief moment that I can bear to look you dead center I am alive. And maybe you were right, everyone does live for their own selfish gain. I live for that smile on your face. The few and fleeting moments of peace and happiness you so seldom find. I breathe your energy and the hopes you have when you have faith in you. I am blessed to know you. Honored still that you consider me your best friend. Selfishly I yearn for more. I want so much to hold you. Tell you every morning and night that I love you. To hold the hands that play such sweet music and create beautiful words. You are amazing even though most of the time you don't see. I can always see. I don't know why our paths have crossed or the directions they will take. Will they run parallel, intersect, or run opposite completely? My greatest fear is that I will lose you again. I know that I was the one who parted our ways but every moment I missed you. Never once did I stop thinking about you. I missed your smile and your presence. The way you call me girl. How when you play your guitar you look at me in a way you don't any other time and I'm still not sure why. That when our eyes meet you almost always break the gaze. The way you don't judge me even if you don't understand. How you have forgiven me for my multitude of sins without so much as a second thought. The way you look out for and take care of me. I love you for that sweet sadness in your eyes. Even your broken smile when you pretend everything is ok. I love that after all this time you still don't know. | 
